Thursday, 28 September 2023
Truth Meditation
"The truth knocks on the door and you say, 'Go away, I’m looking for the truth,' and so it goes away."
Robert Pirsig
(Photo courtesy of Felix Luo and Unsplash.com.)
Robert Pirsig
(Photo courtesy of Felix Luo and Unsplash.com.)
Wednesday, 27 September 2023
WW: Morse code radio
(My thirty-year-old OHR high-frequency CW [Morse code] transceiver, set up at the home of friends. My friends are biologists, and their fossil-sorting table was convenient on several levels.)
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Thursday, 21 September 2023
My Hermit Hut
I've been feeling a bit nostalgic about the old meditation shed I had down at the beach, and it struck me that I've never actually posted on it, though others' huts have appeared here several times. (I did upload a named exterior shot ten years ago on Wordless Wednesday, but the others that have appeared from time to time were illustrating other topics, and so not identified.)
So in the interest of completism, here it is.
This tiny shack, the very picture of a true purist's definition of "hut", started life as my grandmother's potting shed. My grandfather carved it out of the bluff below their house, where I lived for ten years during the formative period of my Zen practice. When I arrived, the house and grounds were both in dire condition; eventually I hacked my way down to this cinderblock shanty, re-opening a steep, eroded goat trail through impenetrable brush. The door, which had been kicked in by a winter storm, lay on the floor inside; only the twisted wreckage of the lower hinge was still nominally attached.
In the intervening years blackberry and honeysuckle had invaded and filled the interior, along with bracken, lady fern, and infant trees, and the roof and wooden parts had rotted in places. Its concrete floor was completely saturated, covered with standing water and mud from infiltrated silt.
I really didn't need a place to sit, as the house – high on a bluff above the grey Pacific, with few neighbours – was already the best hermit hut in history. But rehabilitating one of my grandmother's work stations was an attractive premise, and the place would provide ground-level, fundamentally outdoor meditation, which I always prefer when available.
So I set-to, and after a lot of concentrated effort and scrounging of materials, ended up with this serviceable little squat. I even once sat an all-night sesshin there, hoping to glimpse the bear that left scat in front of it. (I didn't, but I did learn, not for the last time, that spring nights on the North Pacific are bitterly winter-cold.)
So here it is, my own hermit hut. Or to be perfectly accurate, my monastic playhouse. It might not have been strictly necessary, but I learned a lot of Zen there.
So in the interest of completism, here it is.
This tiny shack, the very picture of a true purist's definition of "hut", started life as my grandmother's potting shed. My grandfather carved it out of the bluff below their house, where I lived for ten years during the formative period of my Zen practice. When I arrived, the house and grounds were both in dire condition; eventually I hacked my way down to this cinderblock shanty, re-opening a steep, eroded goat trail through impenetrable brush. The door, which had been kicked in by a winter storm, lay on the floor inside; only the twisted wreckage of the lower hinge was still nominally attached.
In the intervening years blackberry and honeysuckle had invaded and filled the interior, along with bracken, lady fern, and infant trees, and the roof and wooden parts had rotted in places. Its concrete floor was completely saturated, covered with standing water and mud from infiltrated silt.
I really didn't need a place to sit, as the house – high on a bluff above the grey Pacific, with few neighbours – was already the best hermit hut in history. But rehabilitating one of my grandmother's work stations was an attractive premise, and the place would provide ground-level, fundamentally outdoor meditation, which I always prefer when available.
So I set-to, and after a lot of concentrated effort and scrounging of materials, ended up with this serviceable little squat. I even once sat an all-night sesshin there, hoping to glimpse the bear that left scat in front of it. (I didn't, but I did learn, not for the last time, that spring nights on the North Pacific are bitterly winter-cold.)
So here it is, my own hermit hut. Or to be perfectly accurate, my monastic playhouse. It might not have been strictly necessary, but I learned a lot of Zen there.
Wednesday, 20 September 2023
WW: Draught horse team
(Belgians waiting to compete in the driving event at the Northwest Washington Fair. There are other breeds here as well, but for reasons I don't understand, Belgians seem to be the regional standard.)
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Thursday, 14 September 2023
The Seventh I’d Really Rather You Didn’t
7. I’d really rather you didn’t go around telling people I talk to you. You’re not that interesting. Get over yourself. And I told you to love your fellow man, can’t you take a hint?From The 8 I’d Really Rather You Didn’ts of the Flying Spaghetti Monster.
(Photo of devout Pastafarian courtesy of Wikimedia Commons and a generous photographer.)
Wednesday, 13 September 2023
WW: Giant acorn barnacle
(Balanus nubilus. Found it on the tideline after a heavy storm. It was delicious.)
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Thursday, 7 September 2023
Hermit Nation
For some years I've enjoyed sporadic correspondence with a fellow Zenner in England. After a few less-than-uplifting experiences with her Zen teacher, she's decided to try the hermit path, and asked me for a little sanghic perspective. Inevitably, the exchange ended up clarifying some things in my own mind as well. (Hence the value of sangha. As any teacher will tell you, helping others helps the helper.) So I thought I'd excerpt a bit of that conversation here, to spread the support around.
The sister in question is feeling the pull of her nature, though uncertain she can sustain a solitary practice, or that it will prove as fulfilling as the organised model. At the same time she feels like the institution doesn't respect her – that it views her as an isolated failure that must be repaired, or in extremis, rejected. That has led her to question her teacher's "never hermit" stance on alternatives.
As always, I didn't advocate any path to her, since I lack comprehensive knowledge of the facts and entities in play, and anyway, it ain't my karma at risk. But on this issue of only-ness, I felt compelled to give witness.
And so I wrote the following, with allowance for judicious editing:
As is frequently the case, I've been struck by the similarity of our life paths. We are, as I often say, a nation. This is very hard for the gregarious to grasp.
Although the neo-traditional Zen institution views people of our nature as unevolved or learning disabled, the fact is we are and always have been a demographic. One unserved by the innovated monastery model.
The same one that gave us the Buddha and Bodhidharma, to name just two.
And we seem to be coming out of the closet in greater numbers since the Boomers – great believers in authority, their market stance notwithstanding – began their slide into irrelevance.
Hermits don't necessarily seek isolation from others – I don't – but most of my adult life I've lived in rural areas; was raised in one, and have chosen to live in others when choice was mine.
But we live in a time when the rural areas that used to be despised by the urban and urbane have become chic, and they're clearing us rednecks away so they can take our land. It's a big topic, and for me, a painful one. Reminds me of the age of enclosure, and the segmenting of the European countryside into landed estates, which was the driving force that colonised the New World. 'Cept there's no place for us peasants to go this time.
From a practice perspective it doesn't matter much; you can be a hermit anywhere. But my preference is to be comfortably buffered from the rest of my species, and to be in daily contact with what remains. And that's harder to achieve in town.
As for your musings on Zen, I quite agree on all of them. Most of us find, when we encounter each other, that we've had similar experiences, received similar openings, and have much to offer each other in the way of teaching and support. We're the Buddha's only given monastic model, but formal Zen teachers (as well as those of other faiths) are great ones for saying that an unsupervised monk will quickly go off the rails and begin spouting bizarre, self-serving nonsense.
Which happens, of course, but not more often than it does in the Institution. And the result isn't crazier or more dangerous. From where I'm standing, it's clear that ordination is a risky state that few survive. Whereas my formal eremitical practice of assuming I understand nothing, mixed with a disciplining lack of social acceptance, has done a pretty good job of keeping me in my lane.
Anyway, when you mention Zen masters who run their monks as servants, that's my immediate thought. As a hermit, I can't imagine anybody cleaning up after me. Aside from the presumption, there's the fact that cleaning up my own messes is central to my practice; confronting chaos, accepting the necessity of soiling and breaking things, understanding how entirely I participate in universal entropy.
I suspect teachers who don't settle their own accounts have forgotten how unimpressive they are; given their working conditions, they can't help it.
As for me, "I'm nobody" has been my breathing mantra for twenty years. And I still think I'm the lead character in a movie from time to time; that tells you how much harder ordained types must have it.
Any road, society creates us, through a sort of petty terrorism, and at some point we just shrug and pull on the robe, to its great indignation. It's one reason I won't accept spiritual authority from other humans. I'm sometimes asked to address groups about Zen, and I always start by pointing out that I've never been ordained by anyone but my mother, that I have no unique understanding of anything, and that the next Zenner they meet will probably tell them I'm wrong about everything.
And I finish by telling them that anyone who says different about themselves is lying.
We hermits are a very diverse crowd – if we can be said to be a crowd – but I suspect all of us would agree with that last statement, at least.
Robin
(Photo courtesy of Matt Sclarandis and Unsplash.com.)
Wednesday, 6 September 2023
WW: Beaver
(Castor canadensis. Note remnants of today's breakfast in the foreground.)
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Thursday, 31 August 2023
Wednesday, 30 August 2023
WW: Transparent water tank
(How do you hide a giant water tank? Well, if you're the Northwest Washington Fairgrounds, you paint an exact replica of the scene passersby would see if the tank weren't there. The scale and colours are perfect. Highly effective, even on this cloudy day.)
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Thursday, 24 August 2023
Wind Mind
Many years ago, I learned from Thich Nhat Hanh – either in one of his books or a recorded teisho – a useful meditation technique. When, he said, your mind is roiling and you're having a hard time settling into a sit, repeat this couplet silently to yourself on the in and out breath:
"Lake. Still"
Picture a mirror surface, a body of water poured like glass, unmoved and unmoving. Become that lake.
Other times, when you're piqued by anxiety or undisciplined drive, try this:
"Mountain. Solid"
Feel the mountain. Its weight, its composure, its permanence. Sit like that mountain.
I've used both to great effect. In fact, they recently became a mainstay of my practice in a particularly challenging time. So I'm sharing them forward.
In respectful sanghaship I'd also like to contribute a third and similar focusing technique from my own practice. It's a little less placid, a bit harder to assimilate, but in my experience, just as valuable when called for:
"Wind. Wander."
I picture nothing when using this mantra; I just feel the wind inside me. But if a visual is helpful, you might try a leaf or dandelion fluff or even dust.
This came to me while reciting a favourite chant:
Call it active abiding.
In brotherhood with the nation of seekers.
(Sailplane photo courtesy of Mike Peel and Wikimedia Commons.)
"Lake. Still"
Picture a mirror surface, a body of water poured like glass, unmoved and unmoving. Become that lake.
Other times, when you're piqued by anxiety or undisciplined drive, try this:
"Mountain. Solid"
Feel the mountain. Its weight, its composure, its permanence. Sit like that mountain.
I've used both to great effect. In fact, they recently became a mainstay of my practice in a particularly challenging time. So I'm sharing them forward.
In respectful sanghaship I'd also like to contribute a third and similar focusing technique from my own practice. It's a little less placid, a bit harder to assimilate, but in my experience, just as valuable when called for:
"Wind. Wander."
I picture nothing when using this mantra; I just feel the wind inside me. But if a visual is helpful, you might try a leaf or dandelion fluff or even dust.
This came to me while reciting a favourite chant:
In cola ego sum apud te in terra, et peregrinus, sicut omnes patres mei.Unlike the TNH images, mine doesn't bring an immediate sense of calm abiding. But it does contribute crucial perspective, positioning me more accurately in the universe. And in some moments, it's just what I require.
("I am a sojourner before You on this Earth, and I will wander, like all my fathers before me.")
Call it active abiding.
In brotherhood with the nation of seekers.
(Sailplane photo courtesy of Mike Peel and Wikimedia Commons.)
Wednesday, 23 August 2023
WW: Giant tortoise
(An African spurred tortoise [Centrochelys sulcata], just short of a yard long, receiving the adulation of passersby at the Northwest Washington Fair.)
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Thursday, 17 August 2023
Obedience Koan
A British, American, and Canadian ship captain are having a drink together on an aircraft carrier.
The British captain says, “Gentlemen, allow me to demonstrate the bravery of the British seaman.”
"You there!" he calls to one of his sailors. “Jump overboard. Swim under the ship and climb back onto the deck.”
The sailor salutes, jumps off the flight deck, falls 60 feet to the water, swims under the keel, climbs back up and salutes his commander again.
“That," says the captain, "is courage."
“Ha! That's nothing,” scoffs the American. "Sailor!" he calls out to a crewman. “Jump off the bow, swim down the keel to the stern and report back."
The American sailor salutes, leaps off the bow, swims the length of the ship underwater, and climbs up the transom. Dripping before his commander, he salutes again.
"And that," his captain says, "is courage."
Without a word, the Canadian captain turns to one of his crew and says, “You saw what the American just did. I order you to do the same."
The sailor salutes and says, “You can fuck right off, sir!”
The captain turns back to his companions.
“That, gentlemen, is courage."
(Photo courtesy of the Leslie-Judge Company and Wikimedia Commons.)
Wednesday, 16 August 2023
Thursday, 10 August 2023
Vengence Kyôsaku
"Do not repay anyone evil for evil." Romans 12:17
– a tighter restatement of my own earlier effort.
(Photo courtesy of Widodo Margotomo and Wikimedia Commons.)
Wednesday, 9 August 2023
WW: American teapot
(When you housesit in the States, you sometimes have to exercise creativity.)
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Wednesday, 2 August 2023
WW: Labrador yoga
(This position: "After the Tornado". Vacuum cleaner cord optional.)
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Thursday, 27 July 2023
The Gift of Ingratitude
I talk a lot about gratitude on this channel. It's a habit that has two not-very-subtle origins:
1. Gratitude is the wheel of morality, andPrior to becoming a hermit monk, I was routinely guilty of chronic ingratitude. Which is why I'm always urging everybody else to be more grateful.
2. I'm not grateful by nature.
The problem with such haranguing is that it presupposes others need to be so harangued. Few things are as infuriating as being lectured by some freelance supervisor not to do a thing you were in no wise going to do in the first place. Prejudice that lacks the patience even to wait for you to fall into its trap is the worst of a filthy tribe.
But there's an even better reason not to invade this angel-forsaken terrain on a gratitude warrant: like so many other platitudes, it just wounds the wounded again. Now you're not only in pain, you're selfish and stupid besides.
Which is why I found this counsel particularly powerful:
"Please take this as permission to treat certain periods of your life as an unholy free-for-all during which you are not obligated to feel grateful."The writer is American advice columnist Carolyn Hax, whose feature I encountered in a random newspaper.
Her correspondent was hoeing a particularly difficult row, and feeling guilty for undervaluing aspects of her existence that weren't damnably awful at that moment.
And Ms. Hax nailed it: you don't lose the right to resent intrusion on your peace just because other aspects of your life haven't.
I'm reminded of a period when I was badly injured by a calculating individual who left me crippled and broken. Even in distress I was aware that the damage had come largely with my own consent. (Pro tip: sociopaths usually lead their marks down an entangling trail of agreements, resulting in at least partial condemnation of their victims by the public when they at last drop the hammer. That's what they get off on.)
In his awareness that I could have avoided this, the abbot in my head kept disallowing my feelings of anger and offence. But at last I realised that this is what anger and offence are for. Misplaced they're a failing, but when justified, a critical source of truth and self-preservation.
I still remember the moment we talked this over, the abbot and I, and agreed that the time had come to let the dogs off the leash. What happened next is a tale for another time, but the spoiler is that I got the needed results. Taking umbrage under the watchful eye of my mindfulness practice was tremendously empowering, at a time when I felt wholly disabled, and ultimately made me a better person.
Memories that Ms. Hax's advice triggered. Because gratitude, acceptance, atonement, and other moral imperatives aren't absolutes. Like everything else, they exist within the great matrix of circumstance that comprehends everything in existence.
So there are in fact times when gratitude, like forgiveness and generosity, is not only optional, but pathological. The confines of this phenomenon are limited; no ground to stop being grateful as a whole. But for a year or two, in a specific context, till you regain a measure of largesse?
No more Goody Two-Shoes.
(Photo of guard dog from the nightmare realm courtesy of Todd Dwyer, the late Panoramio, and Wikimedia Commons.)
Wednesday, 26 July 2023
WW: Holy shirt
(So I'm not sure whether to pass this monastic tee shirt into the rag bag or mass-produce them for sale to teenagers.)
Appearing also on My Corner of the World.
Thursday, 20 July 2023
Good Song: Dek Bovinoj
In keeping with our general July theme ("what the heck") here on the Ring, today I'm sharing something awesome, just because it is.
This time it's Pablo Busto's Esperanto counting song, Dek bovinoj ("Ten Cows"). After the lyrics below I've translated the last two verses (the first ten being largely self-explanatory).
As profound as the song and performance are, I think the embedded video, produced for the children's show Aventuroj de Uliso, also adds weighty philosophical dimension, so I suggest you watch along.
All in all, an entertaining 3 minutes, even if it doesn't have much to do with Zen.
Or does it?
Dek bovinoj
de Pablo Busto
Unu bovino muĝas,
muuu
Du bovinoj muĝas,
mu mu
Tri bovinoj muĝas,
mu mu mu
Kvar bovinoj muĝas,
mu mu mu mu
Kvin bovinoj,
mu mu mu mu mu
Ses bovinoj,
mu mu mu mu mu mu
Sep bovinoj,
mu mu mu mu mu mu mu
Ok bovinoj,
mu mu mu mu mu mu mu mu
Naŭ bovinoj,
mu mu mu mu mu mu mu mu mu
Dek bovinoj,
mu mu mu mu mu mu mu mu mu, mu
Ni bovinoj ŝatas muĝi
kaj manĝadi freŝan herbon.
Ni tre ŝatas la kamparon
kaj ripozi longan tempon.
Ni bovinoj estas grandaj
kaj produktas multan lakton.
Nia kapo havas kornojn,
kaj la buŝo grandan langon.
Translation of last two verses:
Us cows like to moo
and eat fresh grass.
We really like the country
and resting for a long time.
Us cows are big
and we make lots of milk.
Our heads have horns
and our mouths have big tongues.
Wednesday, 19 July 2023
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